I’m hungry, and all that I can think of wanting is a Big Mac, large, fresh McDonald’s fries with ketchup and mayonnaise, and a large coke. Which is not only astoundingly unhealthy, but I don’t even have money with which to get one.
One of the many, many reasons of why I should get a job. So that when I’m desiring food that I can’t have, I can go get it.
Sooooo hungry…
Being the total geek that I am, I love it when my video games turn out very well in favor of me, especially when it comes to my favorite characters.
I’m currently on chapter twenty of Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon, and I have literally just finished grinding all of my units through the arena but for my little dragon girl, who would fall over at a stiff breeze right now. She’s going to be getting a lot of help on the next couple of chapters to catch up to the rest of the group, who are all level thirty or nearabouts. As such, I will be making a lovely long post on my characters stats versus their averages, and deciding whether or not I was blessed by the random number god. I will do the same thing when it comes time for the final chapter, which will probably be Wednesday at this rate.
Marth, the lord and hero of the game, is currently level 23. He has 37 HP (how much overall health he has), 15 strength (how hard he can hit with his bare hands, not counting the might of his weapons), 15 skill (how likely he is to hit something or pull off a critical hit), 19 speed (how fast he is, and how likely he is to double the enemy, avoid being doubled, and dodging hits), 27 luck (how much he decreases an enemy’s chance of criticalling him and adding to how likely he is to dodge an attack), 11 defence (how much an enemy’s attack is decreased by, not counting much more complicated things like the weapon’s triangle and weapon levels), and 1 resistance (how well he can absorb magic attacks). His averages say that at this level, he is supposed to have 35 HP, so he’s a little ahead, 16 strength, so he’s a little behind, but his growths can make it up, 11 skill, so he’s definitely ahead there, 18 speed, so he’s just about average, 22 luck, so he’s very ahead and we can see where he’s putting all of his energy, 11 defence, so he is right there on his averages, sadly, and 0.44 resistance. This is the only number I’m leaving with all the little decimal percentages after it, because Marth’s chance of getting a point of resistance in his levels is 0.02, but it builds on itself, so you have almost a .50 percent chance on his last level. As a consequence, it is very, very rare of him to get even one point, let alone more than that. My best Marth, in addition to capping strength and speed, has two resistance and though it’s not doing very much, it’s dulling any magical attacks a tiny bit.
My Frey, who is a prologue exclusive cavalier, and later paladin if you keep him around, is level ten of second tier, actually making him level thirty. He has 45 HP, 18 strength, 1 magic for absolutely no reason as there is no magic weapon he can use, 24 skill, 21 speed, 19 luck, 13 defence and 6 resistance from his promotion, which is the only place where he can get resistance at all. At level ten, his averages are: 44 HP, meaning he’s just a tiny bit above, 18 strength, so he’s dead on, 1 magic, which he has no growth in, so it won’t change, 24 skill, so again, dead on, 22 speed, so he’s a bit behind, 14.6 luck, so he’s been blessed in his luck, 13 defence, so he’s dead on again, and 6 resistance, which will never change as again, he has no growths in it. Only characters who can use magic have magic growths in this game, and resistance is only offered to a very few classes, namely pegasus knights, magic users and the Lord, Thief and Manakete. It seems that my Frey is disappointingly average.
Next up is Abel, who is also a paladin, is level eleven of second tier, and I can tell just from a quick glance at his averages that he has been blessed. He has 46 HP, 24 strength, 1 magic, 23 skill, 23 speed, 10 luck, 14 defence and 6 resistance. His averages are: 42 HP, putting him up at better than usual, 19 strength, which is odd to how much he has since he’s the original of a Fire Emblem tradition of the Green cavalier, with stats mostly focused on skill and speed, 1 magic, 24 skill, so he’s a tiny bit behind, but he has nine levels to make it up, 22 speed, so he’s just a bit ahead, 9 luck, so he’s close to dead on cause of how likely he is to get more luck, 13 defence, and 6 resistance. He’s not as blessed as a later character who I’ll show, but he’s turned out quite good.
Then there’s Cain, who is the Red Knight to Abel’s Green Knight, and thus more offensively based, though he’s balanced as all paladins are. He has 48 HP, 19 strength, 1 magic, 22 skill, 24 speed, 15 luck, 13 defence and 6 resistance. His averages are: 45 HP, so while he’s not quite as far ahead as Abel is, he’s closer, 18 strength, 1 magic, 22 skill, 21 speed, so he’s been blessed there, which is good, because it’s not so hard for him to be screwed, 14 luck, 13 defence and 6 resistance. He’s definitely going to be good going on here.
Next is Norne, who is the other prologue exclusive character, who you can only get if you have four or fewer characters at the end of it, and the only female archer in the game. At level ten of second tier, she has 39 HP, 16 strength, 1 magic, 16 skill, 26 speed, 13 luck, 14 defence and 3 resistance. Her averages suggest that she should be at: 40 HP, so she’s a bit behind, but it’s easy to make up, 13 strength, so she’s blessed there, 1 magic, 17 skill, which she can make up pretty well, 25 speed, so she’s fine there, 11 luck, so she’s got a bit of a bonus, 12 defence, so again, she’s blessed, and 3 resistance.
And in the next post, I’ll do the next five or six, provided I don’t get quite so wordy.
Since my ankle is finally in much better shape than it used to be, and so I’m able to go out and take photographs again. Though I’m still not back up to full mobility, I can, in fact, leave the path and stand in the grass to take pictures of things.
My favorite willow at the part for being so knobbly and easy to climb on.
Like this. It’s not the best picture I’ve taken, no, but I like shots like these. Landscapes and photos of plants and animals. They have a vastly different charm than what we see all the time in reality, so I like to capture them.
I think I’ll probably try to do two or three photos a week at least, although I don’t know how well that’ll work…
I think this is the first time in a long time that I sat down to write a blog post and didn’t have to delete spam comments! Yay! It used to be that I was deleting twenty and thirty a day because they were so persistent, but they’ve slowly been trickling away.
Just watch my luck run out now.
Anyway, playing Fire Emblem again cause I want to try out some of those side chapter characters that I never got before. Athena, who you get on chapter 6X, and Horace, who’s in 12X a, are the only two who I’ve used before, and I want to try out the others, especially as the only Sorcerer you can get is in one of those side chapters, along with some other really cool things, like killer weapons and the Wo Dao.
And as a bonus, I am using some new characters and some old favorites already, I currently have nine characters. I have Norne, who is determined to cap speed before she hits promotion level and is proving that her horrible skill growth is only for show, cause she’s two ahead of her averages right now. In fact, probably once I get everyone up to 20/20, I’ll post their averages and their actual stats and determine whether or not I got screwed over by the random number god. But anyway, I have Abel, who is determined to show me that his luck sucks, both in his growth and in the stats he gets, although he’s not as screwed as poor Frey, who didn’t get a single point of speed for seven levels and is only just starting to work on catching up. At least his luck is better than his averages, which helps him dodge.
Cain is proving that he is the man with sharp sticks and a willingness to gouge them into just about any enemy who can touch him. While the only stat he can cap before promotion is strength, and maybe speed if he really tries, he’s doing really well for his averages. Marth and Julian are on different levels of stat caps, as they don’t promote, so they don’t get bonuses to help them with bad levels, but Marth is a point ahead of everything in his levels except for resistance, where his growth there is so low that his chance of even getting one is only .020% per level. Julian is having some trouble with strength, which makes his stealing ability kinda suck, but he’s trying. Radd is a new friend, who’s a myrmidon who starts at level 1 when most of your characters are already over ten and so are the enemies, but he’s doing very well for himself, and has more defence then the three cavaliers already, even though he’s eight levels lower, so he’s undoubtedly not ever going to take damage before he promotes unless the enemy’s using magic. Lena is…Lena is Lena, only her magic is so screwed over it’s not even funny. It took her till level 16 to get a single point of magic, when her averages suggest she should have gotten at least three by then. But she’s already capped luck for the first tier and has a not unresasonable chance of capping resistance as well, and she’s faster than some of my end game Lena’s have been as well.
And then there’s Caeda. Beautiful, powerful Caeda. She has more strength than she’s supposed to at level twenty when she’s thirteen. Her defence is good, and she’s already capped speed and luck. Unfortunately, I still have to keep her away from archers because her HP is only two points ahead of her averages, and archers are usually accurate, but once I get that Delphi Shield, I have a feeling that I’m going to be leading charges with her. Especially since she gets a fuck ton of strength and defence when she promotes, and I can see that she will be the second one promoted (cause Lena’s already level nineteen and we need a mage) and she will be a gorgeous goddess of death.
Yes. I like Caeda. Shush.
This is taken from a quote from the game The Path, from the indie company Tale of Tales, and the full quote reads as “Cut my veins and make me bleed. A valley or an ocean, desire or need?”
Now I’m not about to go out and cut myself, but as several of my posts over the last couple of weeks have actually mentioned, this is a game that is often in my thoughts. And the interesting thing is, I’ve never played it. I don’t have a way to play this game, and thus I have only watched walkthroughs on the internet and bought the soundtrack.
It’s not a scary game as games go, but it can be very creepy and ominous to those who are more susceptible to horror materials. I’m talking about the people who scream at jump scares in even comedy movies because they are startling and unexpected, because I’m one of them. I do not like horror media when it’s represented in any medium other than books, because it tends to haunt my imagination and dreams until I’m afraid I’ll go mad from it all. And usually I don’t have a pull to them, I don’t feel like I need to keep trying to watch them and listen to them to break the fear that makes it so I can’t do anything.
And yet…The Path has done that. I discovered it back in October of last year, surfing TV Tropes pages, read all of the spoilers and stuff on the pages, and assumed that would be it. Then I discovered it again two months later, and looking over it again, I decided that I wanted to look at it to see what it was like. So I looked it up on Youtube, and I found a of the whole game played by a man who knew how to find everything and who could interact with what, for the most part anyway. And I was entranced. I was unable to watch more than two or three minutes of it without having to take a break to pause and calm myself down, but I kept dogging away at it and got through it in a day.
After that, the pull died down again for a bit and I was able to go about without thinking about it a lot. Which was nice, since the music was haunting the darker hours, and since it was December, there were a lot of hours without sunlight. But then in March, I broke my ankle and all of the sudden I was no longer spending all of my time with basset hounds and upstairs in a very small amount of rooms. I was confined to the downstairs sitting room, where I spent most of my days lying on the couch and feeling rather sorry for myself, and the game came up again as something I could watch while I was incapacitated.
And that’s how I discovered Rose Erifnosi’s of it, where she had never played the game before, knew almost nothing of it, and was just as scared of horror games as I was. And it was very funny to listen to her talking about wondering how the game was going to make her leave the path, never straying as she went to Grandmother’s house, and then abruptly discovering that she did it quite wrong as she got a failure for having never actually reached the goals of the game.
And thus, I was hooked. I spent hours every day watching the videos of both Vexxus5 and RoseErifnosi as they played the same game and yet came up with some very different conclusions sometimes, and very similar other times. And I realized that the game is not just a game about the characters within, it is a game that looks back at you and shows you who you are as you play it.
I’m still scared of it, I still haven’t played it. And I have still never even seen Grandmother’s house outside of stills in a slideshow, but it is a game that I can’t get away from. I listen to the soundtrack every day, and while there are some songs that make me shake and quiver so much that I end up pulling my headphones off while I listen to them, I need it kind of.
Because I’ve come to realize that even more than my writing or my blogs or my tastes in music, it can reflect who I am inside very intensely. It’s a mirror to the sides of myself that I didn’t know I had. And because I sometimes feel very very lost and alone and like there is nothing I have that gives me meaning, I need it. I really do. And so someday I’ll buy it. And whenever I feel like I’m going to go mad in my skin, I’ll play it and I’ll reinvent the parts of me that need the horror and the darkness and the mirror to feel whole. And I’ll be okay.
So beware, viewer, because it is undoubtedly going to be a part of my blog for a long, long time.
It’s getting hot again, and I’m actually starting to wear short sleeves without any shirts under them.
It’s a little weird to actually be going around outdoors without at least a long sleeved shirt, since I started wearing them again in September, and it just wasn’t consistently warm enough combined with my sudden lack of going outside all the time to really be sitting around in short sleeves, so I’m not used to having my arms exposed so much.
Ah well, I suppose I’ll get used to it again. And I’ll start wearing my skirts without pants too. That’ll be nice.
Very nice.
“He’ll take your soul, and eat your head…”
I have been singing this damn thing all day. People give you really weird looks when you’re humming things like “A dead grey arm floats up from a dark pit.”
Blah.
Last night, I had a nightmare that woke me up early enough that I knew I wasn’t going to be able to sleep any more, because I wouldn’t be able to get it out of my head.
I don’t want to talk about it, because I’m afraid it’ll become real, but I can’t seem to stop thinking about it.
I need to write. I stopped doing it to focus on other things, like coding, but the words and ideas are starting to build up like a hornet’s nest between my ears, and I don’t know what they want me to do with them. I have a file open, but I’ve only written a few things.
Sometimes I start to wonder if my imagination will drive me mad…
I discovered that one thing I really like in Youtube videos are speedpaints, essentially a time collapsed video of someone drawing a picture, often a fan picture. Some are far better than others, but I really like to see how people put the finished art together.
Then there’s something like this…
This just took my breath away, and at the time of writing it, I haven’t even finished the video yet. But it’s a very large picture, and very very detailed. There are characters in it who I recognize and yet never thought I’d see in that style.
There are only three words I can use to describe this. It’s Fucking. Amazing.
Clearly physical therapy has done more than build up better muscles in my legs, it should not take me four tries to type out my password without making a typo.
In addition already, I seem to be incapable of writing the paragraph tags correctly. Fun!
But at least I have a lovely mix of This Day Aria to listen to, a symphonic metal remix. Yes, I am a fan of the show. It’s a good show, it has good ideas and meanings, a very good mix of female characters, none too perfect or glurgy and it’s got some incredible songs.
And this one is probably the best.
It is from the last episode of Season two, so watch out for spoilers, but it’s a song that’s pretty unusual as songs go. It’s a duet between a princess and the villain who has taken her form. And it’s the same person using the same voice for both of them, but it’s pretty easy to tell just by listening who’s who, right? That would be because she is very good at using different inflections and tones that match the characters who are using the voice to make them sound distinct without changing. It’s pretty awesome.
Anyway though, it’s one of the most popular songs in the fanbase in general, and it has many many remixes. My favorites are a remix, and a remix.
And they’re fun to listen to, and head bang too. I haven’t met anyone who doesn’t doesn’t like them yet, though I’m sure I just haven’t tested them out on a large enough group yet.
It’s a fun song, a good song, and the one that probably stands best on it’s own.
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